urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane All Hail The Father of Light, The True God, Jupiter blessedmaryjane 2008-04-21T17:06:45Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:19495 2008-04-21T17:06:45Z 2008-04-21T17:06:45Z my blisters on my feet are healing slowly. i still cant walk very well today, but i think i could probably make it further than the mac's, which is as far as i made it yesterday. i dont think i've ever been so incapacitated before. i mean, i suppose when i broke my leg, but my parents were around to do things for me, and now i live alone.<br /><br />i am almost done school for the year. i dont know how i feel about it. i thought this year would never end. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:19237 2008-04-16T15:25:07Z 2008-04-16T15:25:07Z consumption of Water, a very constant behavior.<br />it has changed much.<br /><br />the fabrication of life.<br />by our very language.<br />Our brain.<br />cultural circumstances.<br />experiences.<br /><br />pray,<br />because this is All there is.<br />rejoice,<br />because this is All there is.<br />mourn,<br />because this is All there is.<br /><br />Love:<br />it's all there is.<br /><br />will You reveal yourself to me?<br />and be my Grace.<br />wherefore dost thou weep?<br />Answer is Not.<br /><br />Love is platinous<br />as if an android,<br />but a hominid,<br />and myself too.<br /><br />are we immaculate?<br />only in the eyes of Jesus.<br />are we holy?<br />only in the sight of Wisdom.<br /><br />how will we make love?<br />in forms of forms of forms.<br />Fractal?<br />or crop circles or faeries or magick,<br />but mostly Peace.<br /><br />Live Long and Prosper.<br />Peace Be with You.<br />Namaste.<br />God Bless You.<br />Tribute to your King.<br /><br />and<br />I am comforted by the earth.<br />Divine formation of Reality.<br />we humans collect dust and sorrow.<br />May we shine light on what has made itself from nothing,<br />give praise to the Angels!<br />and see what there is beyond money,<br />or violence,<br />or cruelty.<br /><br />Love<br />is<br />all<br />there<br />is<br /><br />it is inside...out... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:19101 2008-04-09T11:40:39Z 2008-04-09T11:40:39Z You're feeling: anxious<br /><br /> To your left: prayer room<br /><br /> On your mind: exam<br /><br /> Last meal included: cereal<br /><br /> You sometimes find it hard to: talk<br /><br /> The weather: sunny<br /><br /> Something you have a collection of: frogs<br /><br /> A smell that cheers you up: marijuana<br /><br /> A smell that can ruin your mood: meltedplastic<br /><br /> How long since you last shaved: a few months<br /><br /> The current state of your hair: inabow<br /><br /> The largest item on your desk/workspace (not computer): scanner<br /><br /> Your skill with chopsticks: good<br /><br /> Which section you head for first in a bookstore: science<br /><br /> Something you're craving: chocolate<br /><br /> Your general thoughts on the presidential race: obama=cute<br /><br /> How many times have you been hospitalized this year: none<br /><br /> Favourite place to go for a quiet moment: library<br /><br /> You've always secretly thought you'd be a good: pizzamaker<br /><br /> Something that freaks you out a little: communicabledisease<br /><br /> Something you've eaten too much of lately: fizzy drinks<br /><br /> You have never: scubadived<br /><br /> You never want to: beinfertile<br /><br /> Where is your cell phone? purse<br /><br /> Your significant other? new york<br /><br /> Your hair? brownish<br /><br /> Your mother? jolly<br /><br /> Your father? intelligent<br /><br /> Your favorite thing? food<br /><br /> Your dream last night? fragmentary<br /><br /> Your favorite drink? tea<br /><br /> Your dream/goal? contentment<br /><br /> The room you're in? home<br /><br /> Your ex? intense<br /><br /> Your fear? intolerance<br /><br /> Where do you want to be in 6 years? seminary<br /><br /> Where were you last night? home<br /><br /> What you're not? conventional<br /><br /> Muffins? oooooohyeah<br /><br /> One of your wish list items? SmartCar<br /><br /> Where you grew up? Toronto<br /><br /> The last thing you did? eat<br /><br /> What are you wearing? pyjamas<br /><br /> Your TV? small<br /><br /> Your pets? jarvis<br /><br /> Your computer? godsend<br /><br /> Your life? peaceful<br /><br /> Your mood? indifferent<br /><br /> Missing someone? yes<br /><br /> Your car? none<br /><br /> Something you're not wearing? shoes<br /><br /> Favorite Store? gadabout<br /><br /> Your summer? work<br /><br /> Like someone? yes<br /><br /> Your favorite color? purple<br /><br /> When is the last time you laughed? yesterday<br /><br /> Last time you cried? yesterday<br /><br /> Who will/would re-post this? katie urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:18696 2008-04-09T11:17:58Z 2008-04-09T11:17:58Z How I come to find these twirling flickers of a True Reality is beyond me. But every night I step towards it's horizon, and I am accompanied by those trained in lost arts, willing to express to me trails of secrets that by chance, randomly, I have seen.<br /><br />The way you ask for God's healing, and you receive.<br /><br />There is a fountain behind everyone, fountains of the divine; different secrets revealing and expressing.<br /><br />So why do we play these games? Everyone clowning around, apparently loose with delights, without the original connection to their source, they play, play for the chance to make things right, and they try to get everyone else to play the game too, because it becomes more real if more people play--but it is not truly real. I dont know if anything is, except for what occurs when you play only for the enjoyment of the sun, the breeze, love in your arms by running through time and mingling with faeries. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:18228 2008-04-06T19:37:27Z 2008-04-06T19:37:27Z I watched Metropolis the other night and I was truly impressed. I havent been impressed by a movie in a long time. Then I spent all yesterday researching about silent movies. there are several i am planning on finding to watch now.<br /><br />I made some guacamole, went out for many walks, have been exploding about time and space and dancing my heart out.<br /><br />also studying for my physical anthropology exam on wednesday.<br /><br />spring is here and i am reflecting and bouncing back. so many things are different, and i am finding joy in them. austin osman spare was featured on antiques roadshow today, and subsequently, crowley, it was a jolly time, indeed.<br /><br />the summer is going to involve a lot of missing of school. i dont know what i'll do yet, though i imagine it will be fulfulling, given the circumstances that i am aware of, such as tom coming in may, and having a satisfactory income. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:17708 2008-03-20T16:56:28Z 2008-03-20T16:57:35Z it hurts to be so far, and then so close, and then far. i dont like being involved outside of my own personal relationship with god. i dont like being pulled in, or attempted to be. i dont like people trying to find out how i think, and then when i finally do, they just disagree with me, even though i wasnt trying to make them agree.<br /><br />i dont like planning, because the world is perfect. i dont like mystery cults or occultism, or religion for that matter, i love the divine and any way that connects me to it, but all the other shit is just labels for something definintive, and therefore, not divine anyway.<br /><br />i dont like mushing all of the uniqueness into one thing, because the one thing is not here, here are the many, and they are beautiful and distinct.<br /><br />i dont like revolutions, because evolution is perfect. <br /><br />i am a little bit angry because of ignorance.<br /><br />my past may yet haunt others. i am here and loving now. i see my path, i know where my energies are placed, and i have been changing, and it still frightens.<br /><br />i do not like being separate and i do not like being distant. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:17432 2008-03-19T01:09:34Z 2008-03-19T01:09:34Z i am having divinely inspired dreams, and its very intense...not only at night, but also during naps.<br /><br />st. patricks day was more katie's birthday than anything, and i had a nice night. <br /><br />i dont even know what to talk about. i feel without my head. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:17089 2008-03-13T14:59:30Z 2008-03-13T14:59:30Z last night i had a dream where tom and i were gnostic christian apostles and we travelled through time, both into the future and the past. it was so much fun.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i am taking the day to write at least half of the first draft of my essay (the way i see it is that if i get half done today, half tomorrow, then i will have the weekend, plus most of monday to make it even better. so that means 1,250 words today...i think i can do it). breaks will be taken for marijuana usage and eating. ha ha. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:16855 2008-03-09T18:19:46Z 2008-03-09T18:19:46Z my research into the role of women in the early church has been a little bit tiring, because i dont think i am that into women's studies, but it has made me realize that i could really get into theology, which really makes me feel better about the calling and going to divinity school, i can totally deal with studying this kind of thing.<br /><br />here is something fun for all of you:<br /><br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ytNoiQ8LkS8">HEAVEN ON THEIR MINDS</a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:16432 2008-03-08T14:12:09Z 2008-03-08T14:12:09Z writing again for school has detracted me from writing for pleasure, but i dont mind, since i think i have dissolved the ambition to *be* a writer, i think it would make me ill with stress. i am writing about the natufian transition to agriculture, and the role of christianity among roman women. woot.<br /><br />i am going to toronto today, which will be nice, i think...<br /><br />i am uncomfortable lately because its hard to watch a friend go through tough times, especially if you're part of those tough times. its hard to watch people go through moments in their lives that you cant help them with, even if you wanted to, it would be putting yourself into an unsafe situation. i think its just hard for me to watch people go through hard times and know that i cannot help them. or reach out to them...really anything along those lines.<br /><br />last night i had another one of my mansion dreams. i sometimes have these dreams that take place in a mansion, and they are really very intellectual and thought-provoking, but i think in this one there was a ghost and i was trying to catch it on film so that this old man would believe me that the mansion was haunted.<br /><br />school is so close to being done for the year: by this time next month i will only have on exam left. i am really excited for the summer, and for the following school year, mostly because of the courses, but also because i will be the secretary for the trent anthropology society. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:16197 2008-03-01T14:29:30Z 2008-03-01T14:29:30Z OK,<br />I really don't make a habit of ranting about politics, but I am.&nbsp; I will keep it short because it's fairly straightforward.<br /><br />Dear Federal Liberals,<br /><br />When you decided not to call an election after that half-assed attempt at a budget by the Conservatives, I thought you were being weenies. Now, at least not as big of a weenie that Stephen Harper is, but none the less, I was drastically disappointed, because, I, at least, think that Stephane Dion, if he gets his shit together, might actually make a good Prime Minister. Either way, the fact that you are now dicking around with the Conservatives (which in some ways is very amusing) by creating rumours that you'll call an election now, makes me want to say: YES, CALL ONE, DONT JUST BEAT AROUND THE BUSH. This minority government sucks my balls, and I don't even have balls. You have a good chance of getting out of the opposition, maybe not getting a majority, but fuck, even if you lose...I just want a <i><u>chance</u></i> to get this dork of a leader Stephen Harper out of my face and stop tarnishing my country on the world stage and stop whoring out my land's resources to America. Also stop playing footsie with George Bush. Arrest the mad attempts to make our country Right and White. Etc. Etc.<br /><br />Man, GIVE IT A FUCKING GO. You don't have anything to lose, and everyone that could vote for you thinks you guys are acting like idiots.<br /><br />From Me. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:15734 2008-02-29T01:32:39Z 2008-02-29T01:32:39Z i am feeling better today. i dont know what did it, but something is just more settled in me...perhaps i realized that it is not the end of the world...<br /><br /><br />in other news, a few weeks ago, i decided i wanted to see the wonders of the world. here is a list, and i have bolded the ones that have been completed:<br /><br /><br /> The Seven Wonders of the Ancient World (all of which no longer exist, except for the first) <ul><li>The Great Pyramid of Giza</li><li>The Hanging Gardens of Babylon </li><li>The Temple of Artemis at Ephesus </li><li>The Statue of Zeus at Olympia </li><li>The Mausoleum at Halicarnassus </li><li>The Colossus of Rhodes </li><li>The Pharos of Alexandria </li></ul> The Seven Wonders of the Medieval Mind <ul><li><b>Stonehenge</b> </li><li>The Colosseum </li><li>The Catacombs of Kom el Shoqafa </li><li>The Great Wall of China </li><li>The Porcelain Tower of Nanjing </li><li>The Hagia Sophia </li><li>The Leaning Tower of Pisa </li></ul> The Seven Natural Wonders of the World <ul><li>Mount Everest </li><li>The Great Barrier Reef </li><li>The Grand Canyon </li><li>Victoria Falls </li><li>The Harbor of Rio de Janeiro </li><li>Paricutin Volcano </li><li>The Northern Lights </li></ul> The Seven Wonders of the Modern World <ul><li><b>The Empire State Building</b> </li><li>The Itaipú Dam </li><li><b>The CN Tower</b> </li><li>The Panama Canal </li><li>The Channel Tunnel </li><li>The North Sea Protection Works </li><li><b>The Golden Gate Bridge</b> </li></ul> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:15390 2008-02-27T20:27:28Z 2008-02-27T20:27:28Z this week is really not my week at all.<br /><br />i have suffered from menstrual cramps, loneliness, a D- mark on an assignment I thought I would do alright on, restless sleeping, lack of confidence, general melancholy and a bruised gum. i've been crying every day, sometimes more than once for some purpose that in afterthought seems inane. today it was because i got an email back from the prof that marked said D- assignment and i just felt worse, this morning i cried because i was paranoid and being asked why, yesterday it was because of my menstrual cramps and my empty bed. the day before it was because of that aforementioned D- assignment, the fact that no one was here to hold me through it and that i woke up alone--without man or kitty cat.<br /><br />i dont mean to complain or make it sound like i have the worst life, because i dont. i am fully aware that my life is more-or-less great, i would even say--its just that i don't often have a week so painful that it is difficult to get up in the morning. feeling like you are going to fail a course, that the prof no longer likes you because you didnt live up to HER expectations...fuck. its all so silly. i dont even know why i am feeling like this. i know i'm more sensitive because i am menstruating, but i dont want to put all the blame on Aunt Flow. <br /><br />i am really upset about my mark, and that i cant do anything about it, and now i just have no confidence in that class whatsoever, and fear doing terribly on my upcoming seminar...i am really sad that Tom is no longer here, and that i cant do anything about that either, except wait. i've never felt so disturbed by the absence of a person. i dont feel like seeing anyone, and yet, i am so lonely i can hardly bear it.<br /><br />i dont feel like cooking, but i dont have enough money to eat out, and i dont feel like cleaning, so my house is a mess. <br /><br />my dad has made me feel like there's no hope for me being financially stable now that i've dropped enviro studies and just focused on anthro. and while in theory, i dont care, and disagree with him, the little kid in me is having a hard time NOT listening to him on this one issue.<br /><br />blah. i just feel like doing nothing, but i have to make this a good seminar to ensure i dont miserably fail this class. this assignment has really fucked up my energy. the absence of my love has made my heart empty and without feeling. i just want to curl up and sleep under a blanket, but i cant sleep because of this fucking theory my head is working on about brain size and cultural adaptation, and it's just about making me mad.<br /><br />next week will be better.<br />maybe even this week will look up starting tomorrow. i hope. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:15070 2008-02-13T15:14:00Z 2008-02-13T15:14:00Z a visit, to find changes have occurred<br />that there is a new mission to find truth<br />love flourishes<br />tenderness enters life<br />even though we only wade through attics<br />haphazardly tossed with discarded items<br />one mans junk<br />another mans treasure<br />or so they say<br />but its true<br />i've found my treasure<br />and i'll beat anyone up who thinks<br />it's junk. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:14833 2008-02-13T03:49:44Z 2008-02-13T03:49:44Z I am moving through ebbs and flows of not only my perception of reality, which I am immensely enjoying, but my emotions as well are doing loops around the sun...and I do mean to suggest that there is some order to it, which it certainly does feel.<br /><br />I have made a few comfortable realizations, most of which have to do with career options and really "real life" things like that. I dont like thinking about such things, but you have to at some point. I dont want a fall-back, I'd rather live outside of society than do something that is unimportant to me. I havent made any decisions, mostly because at this point, I dont need to.<br /><br />Emotionally, I have been feeling very blessed in my personal life, since I have a man that I didnt even think could exist, and every day I think I am still dreaming, ALL DAY, because of how amazing I feel. I've never felt this way before, I feel free, and yet also solid, like I have a home base, which I havent felt for my whole life. I am looking forward to when there will not be so many things up in the air; distance can really create interesting problems that you wouldnt normally have.<br /><br />And my loneliness has put me into some pretty vulnerable situations; last night I cried about Galapagos turtles losing their habitat, and then about water privatization...I was sitting and crying and trying to write it out, but it was very difficult. Speaking of that, writing has been ALL over the place lately. Sometimes I am able to really let it flow, especially when I am just writing down my ideas and my thoughts, but when I try to get started on stories I've been meaning to write for ages, I am stuck, partially because of the pressure I put on myself, and partially because I think a lot of the ideas still need to be fleshed before writing. <br /><br />I've been exercising (dancing, running, swimming) all week this week--not to lose weight (on the contrary, I am attempting to fatten myself a little), but to keep heart and muscles fit. I wasnt noticing that I was unfit, but its better to remain fit than to try to get fit again after not being fit. As for gaining weight, I am trying to eat high-calorie, high-nutrient meals, but my 15 minute walks to and from the bus stop each day are probably not helping with that given that my metabolism is fairly quick.<br /><br />Reading week is going to be wonderful, I feel it! Obviously, Tom coming is pretty crucial to reading week being the superb time that is in store, but I also think that it will be a really good break for my mind to be away from school. How, you say, since its supposed to be READING week? I have most of my work done, I've been plowing through my readings and assignments for the last two weeks so I can get them out of the way. My archaeology assignment has been my favourite actually, and I have looked forward to it.<br /><br />Something feels really good, there is a good air around, changes are abound. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:14408 2008-02-10T13:29:38Z 2008-02-10T13:29:38Z i have been blowing my mind on anthropology and its been tripping me out, my brain is growing and i have a reorganized direction. i feel capable of anything. all of these things have culminated.<br /><br />reading week is going to save my life.<br /><br />i am going to UU church today with john. woot. i am really liking being back with the UU.<br /><br />i've had so many ideas for writing from all of the reading that i have been doing, and i should probably get down to it soon, possibly during reading week, i imagine it will be a creative time.<br /><br />finally i have my identity back, or rather, feels like it is back under my control. what this means, i do not know, but it is important because i can look at things more or less unhinged.<br /><br />running feels good in the wintertime. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:13848 2008-01-25T20:16:17Z 2008-01-25T20:16:17Z today i got three awesome books for under ten dollars, two about egypt, one is a book of new kingdom love poems, and the other is an archaeological survey up to the end of the old kingdom, and walden and civil disobedience.<br /><br />i also was feeling very intense and expressive this morning, and i cut my hair. its like a flapper now.<br /><br />theres so much going on around me, its very strange, my life feels very happy, but those around me have varying flavour...i dont know what to think about a lot of things, yet i am grateful that there are a few things i feel very solidly about.<br /><br />the new archaeology prof is really neat. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:13777 2008-01-20T04:36:53Z 2008-01-20T04:36:53Z there is a realm of undying beauty, where there are developments of peace. after millennia of war and destruction, hope emerges from unspoken and nameless rubble. a vision is planted, as if a seed in healthy earth to propagate love, a destiny for humankind, staged emotionally and rehearsed by the means of our very own history. do we have a continuity? is our community connected through time? there is a clarity in our DNA that is yet to be seen, a mountainous effect of endless gestation by every human womb and every human seed that has shared moments, and followed through into creation. mothers, fathers and children are but all one being, miraculously one consciousness stemming unabashedly into the unknown, changing shape and making new lights. the time has come for our human identity to show itself to the universe, our brothers and sisters.<br /><br />we have nothing to fear, because our destiny is peace. this is in my heart. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:13518 2008-01-18T17:39:20Z 2008-01-18T17:39:20Z my bus ride resulted in little sleep but much positive thinking. i also got to see a mennonite smoke and eat cheetos. that was seriously a sight. new york state is beautiful as always, and i like being in america very much, i feel like i am in touch with roots that i havent gotten to explore much. i plan on spending the next few days doing pretty much whatever i feel like, i dont have a lot of schoolwork to do, though i did bring my microeconomics and archeology textbooks to check out.<br /><br />i had much more to write about yesterday, though for *some* reason, my anxieties have been lfted and there is nothing around me but pleasnt dreams and inspiring thoughts....<br /><br /><br />...i wonder why... ; ) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:13112 2008-01-14T17:40:56Z 2008-01-14T17:42:37Z strange dreams<br />stranger life<br />strangest divine urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:13012 2008-01-10T15:56:43Z 2008-01-10T15:56:43Z <p>the sweetest thing&nbsp;<br />is the present.<br />even though&nbsp;<br />i look forward&nbsp;<br />to the perfect union,<br />my current and now&nbsp;<br />is thorough&nbsp;<br />in its pursuit of man.</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:12697 2008-01-09T17:04:40Z 2008-01-09T17:04:40Z well, the belated celebration of kyle's birthday led me to disregard my prohibition of marijuana. i thought it was going to be a one time thing, and although i certainly have cut down quite a bit, the early derailment was not good overall, so i am restarting, still one month, though now it will cease effectiveness on February 9th. i think its been difficult because of the social atmosphere, not only do most of my friends smoke weed, but i am also right now at a point in my life where i am feeling strange in social settings. because i still want to see my friends, i will try to lubricate it for myself. now, because i dont want to become dependent on marijuana OR alcohol, since the latter is something i was falling back on in the early part of this month out of reason that i could not have my drug of choice.<br /><br />i think the issue is that i really didnt know why i was cutting them out aside from the fact that it seemed like a good idea. well, thats usually never enough for me, i need to have a true and honest feeling behind it. so now, i am going avoid hanging out with people if it means sticking to my word. at least for this month. my hermitage wont last long. i also have a whole bunch of time right now to get a whole bunch of readings and things out of the way for school so my hermitage will be productive. i have been making a lot of spiritual realizations and theres a lot i have to get done there as well.<br /><br />i dont like the feeling i cant keep my word to myself. it's so hard because there is so much happening around me that i am grasping to things that give me comfort, some of which are not good to depend on. it doesnt help that the one person that has ever made me feel complete without any other object, idea or activity is too far for me to do anything with but talk on the phone and send energy over international borders. i feel like my self-identity is reforming, yet again...i feel distant from most people, i feel mostly close to god, but allowing myself to fall into that is scary because it means i have to let go of so much more, and what i gain from it is unimportant so its difficult to just do it you know.<br /><br />but i have to. i have to just do it and not look back. it is going to be truly difficult letting go of the things i need to let go of, beginning the things i need to be doing and remaining constant in myself about it. but it feels very important that i do this now. so i am. i am harnessing the energy that i once had to put myself through all sorts of stressors...and here i go again.<br /><br />i am so bloody terrified. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:12457 2008-01-07T21:31:20Z 2008-01-07T21:31:20Z &nbsp;i am currently in the process of writing, but i cant seem to find an environment that i am comfortable working on it, except my home. this is especially true since i reorganized my livign space and because everywhere but there is a memory that i am not where i want to be.<br /><br />my microclimatology class was a horror. i dropped it as soon as i could get to a computer terminal. this means that my summer school option isnt availiable to me, though i am considering taking an elective, perhaps. or might do none of the above and instead just chill, and work of course.<br /><br />oh yes, work. i have to start looking for summer jobs. what a joy that shall be. i hate looking for a job. i really do. ah, we'll see what can be done. i wouldnt mind beign a councellor at a day camp again, that was so much fun, and it keeps your evenings and weekends free. i know i'd get paid more going with the option thats currently open but i feel like a jerk taking a job with a company that thinks i'm an environment major still.<br /><br />i really want to get this ode written properly. its eating at me because i can't do it right. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:11900 2008-01-07T01:17:07Z 2008-01-07T01:17:07Z i've reorganized my apartment. i think it makes more sense now.<br /><br />i've been having really intense visions about the renaissance. it is inspirational.<br /><br />the best cure for menstrual cramps is a joint and an orgasm. it worked for me, anyway.<br /><br />tomorrow is back at school. i am both nervous and excited. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blessedmaryjane:11599 2008-01-05T21:29:38Z 2008-01-05T21:29:38Z it hurts when people think they know me, or take something i say as a joke in a serious context and then cast judgement on it.<br /><br />i live my life the way i want to live it. what is enjoyable to me, may not be enjoyable to everyone. <br /><br />vive le renaissance.